First Meeting

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First Meeting

Anxious, exhausted, suicidal

The words spoken were like clear water
Rushing in torrents, running through my soul

I was still chaos inside
And I still longed to die

But I listened, and I believed
Eyes downcast, but still relieved.

It felt like someone was finally helping
Someone was finally there,
After all those years of suffering
When I knew no one really cared

I was a child of chaos
An adult of despair

Broken feelings
Shattered dreams
And worst of all it seemed
No one loved me.

I felt so uncomfortable in that church
After everything I had done
I had been on a long, long search
To be the chosen one.

Now I know
It took so much courage
To sit in that chair and try
Though I could not cry

All I could think was Why?
I stayed and
We Prayed

Just for Today
I am Recovering

Serena K.